autumn
coming so soon
catching me unawares
leaves fall overboard
smiling
their fate
my fate
but
smiling
is a little forced
watching
or
watched
accept
loss of control
or meaning
which
though long sought
never was
within the grasp
the native tongue
this time
worse
lost almost everything
in translation
gathering up the crumbs
she said
come to terms
wrestling must
inevitably cease
resolving itself
in rest
unceasing awareness
acceptance
watching peace
fall gently from the sky.